In or Out the Box? What will it be?

by Utamika, posted in Features, Inspiration, small business

Have you ever felt indecisive about doing something but did it anyway?

To wear red or not to wear red? Hmmm

The kind of indecision where you literally feel trapped. Maybe it wasn’t that seriously thought of at the time but reflecting now I ponder what my life would be like had I not made that decision to step out with my sewing.

5 years ago this month I sold my first infinity scarf! Wow!🙌🏿🙏🏽 That was a small but major leap for me. I started something I didn’t know where it would lead or how it would be sustained.

 

If you thought I have the answer now to the latter, I still don’t know where it will lead. 🙂

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October 2014: My first pile of fabrics to make the scarves. These were all sold by Christmas. 🙂

I have spent many nights pondering that outcome and have consciously decided that the destination in this matter is not important as much as the journey. 🙂

“Things will get clearer being on the path instead of watching from afar hoping for clarity.”

However, I would be lying if I said I felt brave at the time of this leap. Courage for me comes from putting one foot in front of my faith and not wavering despite how I feel. That was the kind of step I took. It was a faith step. I tried not to ‘catch feelings’ – give into the doubts I feared and not try at all.

If you are wondering whether those fears left. They didn’t. Rather, they were followed by me scrutinizing my work in every way. I was focused on what I thought was important at the time- qualifications vs talent, skills, title-What do I call myself?, my lack of business experience- Who will support me?Who will take me seriously? How does this all work? etc. You name it, I was feeling it or thought on it.

So why didn’t I stop? Why didn’t I quit?

I’m still standing tall in heels 🙂 

My belief is that things will get clearer being on the path instead of watching from afar hoping for clarity.

Did I want to quit? Absolutely! I did, but I stuck with it.

The support overcame the doubts.

Pushing forward fuelled my creativity and passion as well as my willingness to learn in those areas I lacked knowledge. I wanted to be confident in my journey and to be taken seriously by my friends and family. I wanted to let them know that this hobby had taken flight to something bigger and special. 🙂

So here I am 5 years later and I am still working at it. Nowhere close to where I was then, I can see the growth. My designing, sewing, styling and creative process has expanded because I decided to take a chance on me. I decided to let my passion be explored and I have learnt so much over these years.

Dress by Amshina

I am excited and nervous for the next five years because it’s too late to turn back. 🙂

Wherever you are at and whatever plans/goals you are working towards I hope in some ways this encourages you to reflect and consider that leap that is required for you. That change/leap that says “there’s more beyond the box or circle I have created for yourself.”

Thank you all for being here and apart of my journey. Your support is priceless. I am truly grateful.

I look forward to serving you in the next 5 years.

Thanks for stopping by. See you in November! 🙂

Blessings

Uta